Now I feel angry

All those years of hard work and, as you say, getting recognition in the form of awards, is just cast aside.
We use a system called PEN (no idea what it stands for) and you can get either a negative or a positive entry. I've asked for PEN entries when I've had a good result because that's the way the game's played even though I feel a. I shouldn't have to - my Sgt should know and b. it fees like I'm jumping up and down saying look at me look at me aren't I wonderful doing the job I get paid to do, which doesn't sit right with me. Example, a colleague in the town centre saw a chap who was wanted, called up on Airwaves and a PC came and arrested the male. She got a positive PEN entry. For what? Doing her effing job! If that's an example of above and beyond then it says that a standard level would have been NOT to call it up.
A colleague & I are getting a divisional commanders award (sounds posh - it's a certificate, a grip and grin and a cheap buffet!). I mention this not to brag but if it gets ignored after 12 months then I'm starting to feel why bother? Why not be one of those who does the bare minimum? We also have those PCSO's who never seem to leave the office. I feel like asking why they wear hi vis when the lights are on. Trouble is if I do they'd only run crying to the Sgt & I'll get called a bully or similar. These are the ones who rush to make the Sgt a brew & spend most of their time farting about on their own phones texting friends etc.
The other annoying thing is that those PCSO's who've had negative entries will have them ignored.
There are days when I feel that if I got offered a decent redundancy package I'd take it and draw my pension down early and say f*ck it. Those days are coming more and more frequent.
OK. Breathe. Rant over. Look after yourself and good luck.